Tuesday, November 21, 2017

Faceboob (spelling error on purpose)

Facebook. The debil (my attempt at country slang), the ruination of society.  I will preface this by saying that Faebook can in fact be a good platform to 1) Advertise what you are selling and 2) To keep in touch with far away contacts.   Other than those two things, Faceboob is an absolute time waster, and keeps you from living your real life.  Is real life boring to you?  Then change what you are doing.  Do you feel like you are living through others by reading their exciting posts?  Then, get off the sofa, and start living your life, because before you know it, you won't be able to 1) Afford to live and 2) Actually enjoy it.

Here is a good way to discern if Facebook is the debil to you:


1) You post a photo of yourself and memorize the number of likes.

2) You post passive aggressive memes so that that special someone will see it.

3) The first and last thing you do in the day, the moment you can get on the internet, is to see what everyone ELSE is doing.

4) You take time away from real people to be on Facebook-- scroll through while at dinner, or family gatherings.

5) You believe that attention to your photographs is meaningful, that the like is for the whole you.  It is not; that like is for your physical attributes only.  This is all well and good, but it's a cheap attention, and cheap ain't what matters in life.

6) You have real life conversations on what was said on Facebook.



If all of these apply to you, at least at times, you need to step back and start living your life.  I call it Faceboob, because it does reduce our intelligence, it really, really does.  I am guilty of most of those things...  I have taken steps to walk away...  Here is what I do.

1) Remind myself daily that Facebook is NOT real.  Messages through Facebook are simple, and cheap ways to maintain connection to people without working for it.  If you want what's real, you gotta be willing to shut the phone off and get it.

2) Understand that most people are on there to advertise themselves in some way.  Not all advertisement is bad; especially if it is quality.  But, those who put up photos designed to get cheap attention, will in fact, get cheap attention, and then be sad when that is what they got.  Demand respect, do not ask for attention.  Girls, seriously, you can do far better than having someone "like" your scantily clad photo on line.  Please, have some self respect.  And guys, just be men.  Share your lives, no need for more.  I won't go further than that ;)

3) The biggest thing for me, was to delve so far down into Faceboob, that I lost all sense of who I was.  And I had to go searching for help to identify who I truly was.  Now, the people I admire more than anyone, are the ones who are rarely on Faceboob; for they have mastered life... Faceboob is simply a diversion from real life.  Don't miss your life for a like on the fake Faceboob.  Please don't.

Live your life like it's the only one you've got, don't miss a thing!!!


Monday, November 20, 2017

Losing myself..........

Hi everyone... Yes, almost TWO years since my last blog post... The only reason I can come up with is I have spent the last two years basically "finding" myself.  You see... most of my life has been spent trying to please others, not complain, or rock the boat.  This has caused a lot of people to see me as weak, and rightly so, and it then caused me to accept being treated as "less than".  Well, finally, after a very scary medical dodged bullet, losing people that mattered a lot to me suddenly without warning, and a new found desire to get healthy myself, I started to find myself needing clarity in that one piece that absolutely was swept under the rug--- my psyche.  Who the heck is Julie?

I no longer enjoyed the sheepdog trials at all.  I did not want to be with people that were not genuinely "nice" and friendly (for every one friendly person, there were 99 not), and I did not want to, CERTAINLY spend money on these people (in the form of trial fees etc.)  Okay, so no more trialing, other than a few close by trials.

Then, I started to travel.  That is when the dam broke.  That is when I truly lost my keel, and had no navigation, other than to do more traveling.  So I did.  And I realized this life ain't about anything other than my happiness, and peace.  Along with that comes the well being of my true friends, and family, but at this point, it was JUST about me, for once.  It had NEVER been about me...

So, I went to Montana in 2016, and then later in 2016, I went to England.  It was great, but it started the "I am absolutely not happy with my life" diatribe...  So, in 2017, I cut back my sheep to almost nothing, moved dogs on, got rid of a bunch of stuff in my house.  Just got rid of it all. I wanted nothing to keep me where I was.

And then, in 2017 I really started traveling- for real.  I was either away, or just back, or getting ready to leave.  I never put my suitcase away.  I would check the sheep, and leave.  I was fully checked out of my life at home.  Done, gone.  It is what I thought I wanted- to be rid of this prison of a defunct life.

And then, on my last trip... I started to long for home again.  True home, where there is peace.  All this traveling and not a lick of peace...

So, as I sat home, with my Meow by my side, and Joe lying at my feet.  I had a very faint wave of "it will be okay now Julie, you are home" come over me.  It was almost imperceptible.. but it was there.  I was finally feeling at home with me.  That is huge.

There is now a whole other bucket of emotions that have cropped up, but that is normal when you go through growth that I have.  It is so much easier to shut emotions down, to  never get happy, or sad, but that ain't living.  It is existing.   I won't exist anymore; in for a penny, in for a pound as they say.

So, going forward, seeing life through new spectacles, I can say this:  The only things I will engage in will be those that feed my soul, and heart.  I will no longer do all the giving, and not receive anything, because I am too busy giving.  If someone treats me badly, I will call them on it. I will be a door mat no longer. I will own who I am.

I am still doing the Sheep (thank goodness), and will always have my Border Collie(s).  But basically, the rest is simply up to the soulful Gods that I chose to follow.  If it ain't bringing you up, it's bringing you down.  I want to smile every single day, and that means choosing my friends, and how I spend my time wisely. 


I think it is very true that sometimes, we truly need to get lost, in order to find our way home. 

Blessings to you all.

Saturday, December 5, 2015

Well, here I lay on a Saturday morning.  I am a bit sore necked, so trying to rest before my big day tomorrow.  I have pulled all the carpet/padding etc., out of my bedroom and walk in closet.  I will be installing vinyl plank flooring tomorrow.  Looking forward to doing it, but it will be a lot of work.  So, hence the chill for now.  It will be good to get things done as Jenny is getting into everything that was once packed away and is now sitting out in the living room.  I think I will leave some furniture permanently out of the bed room for now.

I have to go to the grocery store and dog food store today.  Thought about working the dogs, but my heart's not in it, so will hold off.  I need to get this bedroom done, then I can breathe for a minute, until my next project.  There are many of them.


Always busy, but it's living life and moving forward, and that's how I roll.

I am missing Kylie a lot right now.  If you read back in this blog, you will see I used to write a lot about her.  She was a bit left of center, not totally normal, but she really only had eyes for me.  Miss you Kylie.


Thursday, November 19, 2015

Brief note

Seems it is hard for me to post.  It's not that I don't like sharing, it's that I have been very busy, and every time I do stop, I have other things on my mind.

Things are going well, busy, but well.  Have been doing some work on my home lately, in the form of the decks (front and back).  And, I am bound and determined to rip out my bedroom carpeting this month.  I have a lot of debris/garbage to get rid of and I can get that removed as well.    I still have to finish leaves too.

Then I have to go on to the barn at the farm and also some fencing.  I will be busy a lot.. such is the life.  I would not have it any other way.

Dogs are good.  Jenny the pup is doing well, she's a wee little thing, compared to the boys, but she's mighty.  Joe working well, and Johnny has moved into an un-fenced field and doing well.  Danny is still ball crazy, and Lucy is still Frisbee crazy.  Meow my kitty is great as always, and has finally lost a bit of weight, so he looks good.

It appears all my ewes have been bred by the new ram, so we are good there.  For me fall is a busy time, and a good time.  I don't mind winter at all, as long as I have the right clothes to wear!

Hope everyone is well.  Ta!

Thursday, October 1, 2015

Best Steak Dinner Ever

I want to share with you all, the recipe I use to make the best steak dinner you will ever have.  I don't say this lightly. I have been making steak for many years.  I never had a grill, so I tried many methods before what I use now.

Okay, first thing first.  The meat.  I prefer Sirloin.  Only Sirloin.  Not eye round, or anything with the word "round" on it.  These are sub par cuts for steaks (good for stew, but not steak). Also, pass on the T-bone and the Rib eye.  I have yet to find a T-bone that is not rife with grizzle in it and the Rib eye is simply too fatty to be cooked in a kitchen (ask me how I know this).  Porterhouse is great, but super expensive.

Anyway, look for Sirloin.  Then, before you purchase it, make sure it is not brown.  The brown is more than likely caused by air hitting the meat, and the brown is the meat starting to literally rot.  Trust me, this I know (I have sadly learned this more than once).

For one person I generally get a steak that is big enough for two meals, and cook the whole thing in one shot. The more you cut meat up into smaller pieces, the drier it will become as you cook it.  Also, do not get a super thick one.  A bit over one inch thick is great.  Also, don't get a piece with lots of white through it, that is grizzle and will ruin your steak experience.

Okay, so, what else do you need for this dinner?  Potatoes and a veggie.  My favorite for this is a Russet potato and super sweet corn.  Look for the super sweet name, it makes a difference. Frozen only, no canned!!

Get two potatoes, (as you will have two meals from this), and a bag of corn.

Now, for cooking.  The potato can be done either in the oven, or in the microwave.  Traditionalists call for the oven, and I do love a real baked potato, but I have found the microwave works very well.  I wash the potato off, then wet three paper towels thoroughly and then wrap the potato in the paper towels.  I then put these in the microwave for about 10 mins.  If you are doing two potatoes, it will take longer.  You can tell they are done by squeezing the potato (careful, they are hot!)  If you decide to use the oven, 350 degrees, wrap the washed off potatoes in tin foil and bake for about an hour.

Then, get your frozen corn.  Put water 3/4 full in a medium sauce pan and turn on the heat.  When it's boiling, THAT is when you add the corn and it only needs to cook for one minute.

So, your potato is going (in the microwave), your water for your corn is on, and now your steak.

Get a medium size frying pan, put a small amount of virgin olive oil in the pan and set it on medium.  Get your steak and salt it with a bit of sea salt on both sides.  Place it in the pan once the pan is hot.  It will sizzle, and this is important as you want to seal in all the juices.  Let it sit on one side for one minute and then one minute on the other.  In between moving, it from side to side, use the tongs and tip the steak on it's side so you sear the sides too.  Never use a fork on this, or you will allow all the juices to escape.  After no more than a total of 4 minutes (two on each side), take the steak off the heat, and let it rest.

By now your corn water is boiling and pour the corn into the boiling water and let it go back to boiling and stay there no more than one minute.  Remove your potato from the microwave and remove the peal by placing the potato on a plate and using a knife to slip under the peal and then use your hands to pull off the peal.  This takes some practice to not burn your hands..  Do not forget your corn.  Use a pan lid to drain the corn and then put a little bit of butter in the corn.    I also use butter on my potato, so I put it on at this time, by mashing the butter into the potatoes. 

By now your steak should be done resting.  You will know it's perfectly done by seeing juices coming out from under the meat on the plate.

So, cut yourself a piece of steak, place it on the plate that has the potato, and then spoon yourself some corn. Season as you like and enjoy.

This is my absolute favorite meal.  Great for one or two people and absolutely natural, no processed food whatsoever.


Wednesday, September 30, 2015

The Big E

I had a great time at the Big E on Monday.  I went to run Joe and Dan in two trials over the course of the day.  These were time/point trials in an arena.  I got there early enough to unload my car at the building, which was great, because at the end of the day, you have to schlep your stuff (crates, etc) and dogs back to the far away parking lot through throngs of people. 

Anyway, Dan ran first and had a decent go, not bad for only being back with me about two months, and only having worked twice for very short periods with me... He was happy and so was I.  Joe had a very good run, but I muffed up the pen, so it added time (shortest time with total allowable points gets you the win), but at the end of the trial, Dan got 14 place and Joe got 3rd. 

The second trial, not so good.  Joe was off the rails a bit, so we lost some points.  Dan had a sheep that kept escaping.  Joe did not place, but Dan eked out a 15th place.

It was a great little event, and I can't think of a better way to spend a Monday, than dog trialing!  I was interviewed while I was there, and I have attached the link for you all.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IStJ0QNF5BY


Dan is in there toward the end, catching the rogue ewe I mentioned earlier.   Joe is with me while I am being interviewed at the end.


On the sheep front, I have had some sort of creeping respiratory crud, the ram has it and one brown ewe.  They both got their second dose of LA200 yesterday.  They looked better than they did on Sat, so here's hoping.  I spoke with the vet, she said this flip flopping weather is hard on these guys.  She said not to panic, just do what I am doing.  If things continue to spread I will get her out.  She's a great young vet.

The ram has seven more to mark.  They have been on a field with some red clover in it, I sure hope the phyto-estrogens in the red clover are not messing things up.  I guess I will know by them either being bred very late (after the clover is gone) or on time (while clover still around).

Dogs are good, although no training lately.  When sheep are not feeling up to par, I don't train dogs on them, and I also don't train in very early pregnancy.  So, a bit of a lay off.  It's okay though...  it has been a bit too hot.   Though as of later this week, it is supposed to cool off, finally!!

Well, that's all there is now!  I hope everyone is having a great week!

Sunday, September 27, 2015